11 pm
Well I didn't do as much bible reading as I wanted to today. I did read proverbs 31 before I left for my very short walk. (cut short due to me slipping and falling on some ice that made it very painful to do anything for a few hours.) I was reminded that even though I'm going to be a stay at home mom for the most part, I have things to do. Here are some snipits of the verses I need to focus on:

^{10 An excellent wife, who can find? 
For her worth is far above jewels.} 

11 The heart of her husband trusts in her, 
And he will have no lack of gain. 
¹² She does him good and not evil 
All the days of her life. 
¹³ She looks for wool and flax 
And works with her hands in delight. 
¹⁴ She is like merchant ships; 
She brings her food from afar. 
¹⁵ She rises also while it is still night 
And gives food to her household 
And portions to her maidens. 
¹⁷ She girds ^[l]herself with strength 
And makes her arms strong. 
¹⁸ She senses that her gain is good; 
Her lamp does not go out at night. 
¹⁹ She stretches out her hands to the distaff, 
And her hands grasp the spindle. 
²⁰ She extends her hand to the poor, 
And she stretches out her hands to the needy. 
²¹ She is not afraid of the snow for her household, 
For all her household are clothed with scarlet. 
²² She makes coverings for herself; 
Her clothing is fine linen and purple. 
²³ Her husband is known in the gates, 
When he sits among the elders of the land. 
²⁴ She makes linen garments and sells them, 
And supplies belts to the tradesmen. 
²⁵ Strength and dignity are her clothing, 
And she smiles at the future. 
²⁶ She opens her mouth in wisdom, 
And the teaching of kindness is on her tongue. 
²⁷ She looks well to the ways of her household, 
And does not eat the bread of idleness. 
²⁸ Her children rise up and bless her; 
Her husband also, and he praises her, saying: 
²⁹ “Many daughters have done nobly, 
But you excel them all.” 
³⁰ Charm is deceitful and beauty is vain, 
But a woman who fears the LORD, she shall be praised. 
³¹ Give her the product of her hands, 
And let her works praise her in the gates.

Ok, so that was pretty much the whole thing, but it shows what I would like to strive for. Mostly making my husband proud of me and wanting people to know my name. 

I'm not feeling much different then this morning, it's still kinda..... not real yet??? Is that the right wording? I don't know. No morning sickness yet, no significant weight gain, and I don't feel any physically different yet. One thing though, when I went to target with my mother-in-law, and we walked by the baby stuff, I wasn't just looking at the cute clothes, I was looking at what kind of stoller I would like, and what kind of crib. What the quality is like, and not just how cute it is. I think I'm trying to be rational as well as excited at the same time.

Well that is all for today I think. I'm going to try and make blogging a do every day thing, but I can guarantee I will fail sometimes. But here I go! I might as well try. This may be my journal as well to my child.